hihihi.

life has been pretty much stagnant and boring.

ed's papers are finally ending in 2 days time! yay!
but ive to thank him for putting aside 2 whole days for me after his first 2 papers. that surprised me. haha.

melvin's 21st is gonna be this coming sat. sounds quite eggciting considering how there's gonna be tons of melvins. hahah. and even better, premmie's gonna be there too! so we can do some good catching up man.

so soon, december's almost here. and then its gonna be christmas and then a whole entire year has passed us by!
wow.
time to reflect on my life and to think about the future man.

im really excited for 2011 because im going back to school and theres so much to look forward to. also, theres the US trip which is like the highlight of my life man. can't wait to step back into the kitchen again and do all that kitcheny stuff. but truth be told, i am actually very intimidated. i dont exactly feel super ready to get back into a kitchen cos i feel expectations are going to be much higher. and not only that, everyone else has so much experience im so clueless. i feel bimbotic.

gonna start on christmas shopping too. so it'll be fun.

im just really looking forward to december and christmas. maybe cos i'll have all the time in the world for friends and family and it'll be hard to have that much time left once i start school.

roy's 21st is coming up too. and i think it'll be a blast! zoukout with all my favourite people. ohgosh. awesome.

i know this post is very much in 'bits and pieces' but yeah.

oh, and i should really learn how to burp. HAHAHA.


im really hooked on youtopia by armin van b and adam young at the moment. and i love bep's remix of time of my life. its so good.






I LOVE YOU.

7:55 PM; unforgotten.Y

yanoe, today it struck me, that maybe its all destined that the important boys in my life all end up with screwed up girls. And im so tired of trying to protect them from these girls cos really, they aren't gonna listen to me right now.

So what im gonna do is just to be happy for them. And be there for them when shit happens. As always the case, whatever the case.

having a random conversation with ed today made me realised that im a less than, less than perfect person. And therefore, maybe i shouldnt be judging these girls who walk in and cling on to these boys. And being the over protective me, i'd have to admit maybe i am over reacting. Because these people are family to me. And while i am more than willing to get into a cat fight with the girls, i guess maybe, just maybe, they deserve a chance.

I still don't like these girls and i will not pretend i do. But if my brothers choose them, i will welcome them into the family... Not with open arms though. But i will be gracious.

Because i know full well, as they, that the girls will not remain in the family for long.

I wish all these boys see how wonderful they are. That they deserve so much better. That there's a girl who's a zillion times better than she out there for them.

And yanoe, i will protect my girlfriends as best too. Except that so far, i think my girlfriends have been more rational than all the boys. And they certainly seem to make better choices in the boys they date. Hahahah.
Im proud of you girlies!

So yeah. I can't wait to meet lionel and tell him. And call ming and hear what he has to say. You have no idea how much these boys mean to me. And i would give up the world for them. Yes, even if it means looking unglam and getting into a cat fight.

Lets face it, the girls who date them, unless they're the right one, would always hate me because im always seen as the threat. So im just gonna hang around and chill. I promise to be nice. Kinda.






And to my boys, please, you deserve someone who loves you. Knows you inside out. Is there for you in good times and bad. I wish you people saw yourself the same way i see you, or many others see you. That you are perfect in so many ways. That your heart is pure and genuine. That really, a girl out there is looking for you as you are for her. So don't rush.
I love you.

And lionie, esp to you,
Thank you. For always being able to make my day. For always making me laugh even though i am on the verge of throwing a bitchfit at you. For always giving me the reassurance that i need. You have such an amazing heart. And i wish you knew that.


Goodnight.
I love you.

4:06 AM; unforgotten.Y

life has been good.
Not in the last few days tho. Ive been sick and i just went to the doc today. Im down with some kind of tract infection.

I went for the sit-cia interview ytd, and to me, i think that was my worst interview of any sort. In my whole life.
i got asked a simple question which completely stumped me, that being 'how to poach a fish.'
And i didnt think i was as eloquent as i could possibly be. No doubt i was sick and i tried my best, but still im pretty disappointed with myself. Now, i can only hope for the best and let God do the rest.

The next hurdle for this month is my driving test. So im rushing through lessons and all right now. It really is a pain to go for lessons but im just really pushing myself.

i can't wait for zoukout. Cos together with the boyfriend and gang, we've booked a suite at amara so we've got a place to get drunk and crash at. The line up this year is awesome and one huge reason why ed's going is cos of david guetta. And i also think its cos he doesnt want me partying too hard. Haha.
That said, i guess im left with no choice but to hang with them. Hahah. No, its not a bad thing, they're fun and hardcore. I now feel bad for texting all my favourites to get them to go for zoukout. so i promise to spend atleast some time with all the different cliques, if they do go.
Im not sure abt the girls, but i know my hansum boys are definitely going, and i lovelovelove partying with them so i wil and must find them on the beach.
I can't wait. zoukout 2 years back holds a ton of memories for me. This year willbe even better cos i have my love with me.
Already, all the girls are like 'okay, 2months to lose weight!' haha. i've 2months to tone up on my tummy so yay. Doubt i'll do anything about it tho. Hahaha.
I told ed, 'im gonna wear a bikini!' and his first reaction is 'you dare?' and the next 'nah, you wont?'
Truth be told, i dont think i will. I might, if its a flat tummy day, but i think i'm just gonna wear something comfy and party friendly. what the heck tho, still so long, can decide then. heh.

Lotssa the boys have pop-ed and im so happy for them. Ivan got best recruit and on his way to becoming a combat medic and randy's gonna be a srgt soon.

waiting for my cough med to take effect so i get drowsyyyy. Nothing beats good old doc given cough syrup, seriously.




Pray for me.

Love you.

Ps. The other day i sat next to some china man who apparently had shui dou, im guessing its chicken pox. But what the heck. hes so damn inconsiderate to be out on public transport with something that infectious! Grrr.

7:38 PM; unforgotten.Y

i know ive said this many times before already, but i think ive got the best boyfriend ever! Like i really really really think so.

He does all these many awesome things for me. And hes so selfless and he thinks for me. I think, to actually have someone who puts yourself before himself is amazing.

Everyday i wake up and i feel happy seeing his fat face. Hahahaha.

No, but why i suddenly decided to talk about this is cos we happened to talk about the iphone4 the other day. And he told me he was probably gonna upgrade his plan and get the iphone. And he actually goes on and asks me 'so if iget the new phone, do you want that one or botak's one?' botak's iphone (the one he is currently using) is 2g. It is a complete wreck and if any of you ever saw the screen, you would actually be amazed at how the phone is still usable. Haha. Yes, it is that bad. And there edric is asking me if i actually wanted to have the brand new shiny iphone4 when like, hes the one whos gonna pay for it and all. I think he's amazing.
And just for the records, ofcos im not taking the new one. I'll take the wrecked one just for games ^^ teeheeheeheeheeeeee

Yeah, and the boyfriend goes online shopping just to try to look for unicorn stuffed toys for me. I really wouldnt pay that kinda money for a toy and i scream in horror when i ask him for the price but hes completely cool and all he says is 'i knew it'll make you happy.' he is loveeeeeee.

And he buys stuff to place in his room just cos he knows it'll be for my convenience. Like mirrors placed nicely for my height and boxes to put my clothes and snacks and all that other rubbish.

He even shops for toiletries for me and helps me do my eyebrows and gets up early for me.


Okay. I think thats enough. Hahaha. Will prolly feel quite eeked out by this gushy gushy post one day. But truth be told, i really think hes great. Andits not often i ever gush about a boy. Well yes, i say they're cute and blahdeeblah, but not this way. Haha. Im very blessed and i do believe if someday we break up, the next guy i date has very big shoes to fill.


I love you eddiebear!

9:02 PM; unforgotten.Y

my eye hurts. i feel as if its gonna come flying out any moment.
quite a funny htought actually.

my life has been uneventful.
getting used to having one tooth less, having a hole at the back is a pain though cos food keeps getting stuck in there. its like a random cave. hahah.
met up with the poly people last sat and it was awesome time spent. had drinks at a nice bar called lots stocks and barrels. really cosy, played good music. and drink prices i must say, are reasonable. would definitely go back there soon to chewout.

been thinking of what to do with my life and i feel just sitting around aimlessly waiting for the CIA degree is kinda pointless. its also making me feel very blahed out cos like, i dont feel as if i have anything or something to look forward to.

i haven't found a job im terribly interested in yet and thats annoying.
im also looking at studying somewhere but everywhere is so crazy expensive.
currently im looking at sim/imi BA - 50k for 1half years.
and le cordon bleu in aust BA - 70k for 3 years.
either of which are way beyond my means. also, as much as studying overseas sounds tempting, i have my reservations. other than where finance issues are concerned.

i think im going through a quarter life crisis. hahaha. thats what ed joked. ahwells. whats a girl to do. especially when shes aimless, and moneyless.

maybe i really would go for the sq cabin crew interview. just to make myself feel as if ive tried something. if i get in, then by God's grace, he wants to bless me with money and travel. if i don't, guess i was made to travel by SQ instead. hurhur.

lets hope something good comes out of everything.

love you.

12:11 AM; unforgotten.Y

today, i discovered a new site, love gives me hope.com.

they have all these amazing love stories about unconditional and undying love. and it really is inspirational.

i just had to come on and say that around me, love gives me hope.

you give me hope.
i just hope you know who you are.

you people are so perfect and beautiful to me. and i cannot think of any other terms to describe you all. i am blessed to have you in my life.

thank you for everything you've done for me.

i love you all. more than you'll ever imagine.

11:04 PM; unforgotten.Y

yesterday, i gave my virgin bike ride away. Honestly, i was pretty apprehensive cos i keep hearing of all these horror stories from those who ride with efren.
But i had fun. I love the wind in your face, it was so so so amazing. In a way, im glad i havent been riding bikes since i was a kid or something. Its just damn shiok to speed and if i have been accustomed to all the going ons on the road, i figure i'll be getting my bike license now and not driving. haha.

so i just wanted to come on and confess that im skipping driving lesson today. cos im so tired. and sian. and i have a date with ed.
!!!
yes, a date!
we haven't gone out on a date in !@#$@! long. cos we've been busy, and broke, and even though we see each other alot, we've been spending 3/4 of our time with out friends and just chilling and all. so yes, today, we're going out for a nice dinner together. i can't wait.

and you know how i have the sweetest friends? i think they're best when they say completely random, uncalled for, nice things. lionel made my day the other night we were out cos while we were just chillin on the dance floor, he pulls me over and says 'yanoe, out of every girl in this club, you're the prettiest. and i really mean it.' i thought that was really really really sweet. and i always feel so taken care of when im out with the boys. i kept getting shoved at the other day, and they boys just kept pushing all these drunk guys away and making sure i was good.
they really are my favourite boys in the world yanoe? for two hundred and ten reasons, they really are.

then after supper ytd don suddenly said
'eh, sheen, 21st next year right? you dieeeee.'
'you can't possibly not invite us to you party.'
-thats cos im not gonna have a party don.
'well, we'll throw you a party then!'
hahah. i thought that was kindaa funny. but knowing the thought of throwing a party for me is quite nice. i mean, those guys aren't MY friends yanoe? they're like my boyfriend's friends. so its nice to feel like im part of them.

im going for a wisdom tooth extraction next week and im scared.
my ftt is next week too.
ed's birthday is next week too.
and im flying off on the 14th for hongkong.
and possibly batam on the 26th or some other day.

life's good.

love you.

1:39 AM; unforgotten.Y