ladies and gentlemen boys and girls children of all ages,

I AM ALMOST DONE WITH THE DAMN REVIEW. HEY HO LETS GO!

now all im left with is a whole ton of other random rubbish. GRRR.
okay. maybe i should quit work.
but no. think of the moolah sheen!

tomorrow, people shall help me with the stupid facebook account. HAHAHAH.
i need it to stalk peoplezzz. teeheehee.

10:56 PM; unforgotten.Y

i have 10million and one things to do. this sucksssss.

restaurant review which i have completely no inspiration for.
biz etiquette research. and task.
wash clothes
iron clothes.
and i have so much to read up on for wine. i can't wait for us to get through wine and go on to beverages. i think wines really interesting but somehow, im more interested in all the funny spirits and all cos maybe its more in relation to what im doing. ohwell. for now, im just attempting to soak up every single thing. and theres so much to know for service too. time to dig out recipes and all man.

i tell you, at the end of my time spent in poly, i will be a damn good housewife balls. i can cook clean wash iron.
eh, i know i don't look like i can do all that okay but im amazing at them, yes, talk about ego and confidence. hahaha.

i am so glad someone offered to help with designing and all that sorta things if i need that kinda help. god sent i tell you. i can already think of one project that might need designing help.

and side note, i really like have one to one conversations with people. yanoe, i think i love work because i meet so many different kinds of people. just looking at the staff, theres a ton of different personalities and its just so cool when you get to know them better cos despite being in the same place, they all have really different dreams and beliefs. its just really interesting to find out stuff about them. it still surprises me when people open up to me and tell me so much about themselves even though we dont know each other that well. but its after they open up that i start to talk more and well, be even nicer than i was to them.

i dont really like talking to people. but i like talk to people, if you actually get what i mean. i think im the kind who really likes actual, solid conversations, stuff with substance. not just small talk. those are blah. i think its so cool how no matter how old we all are or how different we all are, we all have aspirations. big or small.

someone wants to go back to school and then have his own business.
someone wants to go get his degree and do events and design.
someone wants to go into photography.
someone wants to go on and earn atleast 7k a month.
someone wants to go and take over the entire group of les amis.
someone wants to go win a nobel prize for making a difference.
someone wants to go get married and have kids and be happy.
someone wants to go on with his degree, become an engineer, earn loads and settle down.
someone wants to go become the most amazing pastry chef ever.

aren't those amazing dreams? i think they are. it makes me happy whenever i think about all the conversations i hold with all those people. and i think they're all damn cool lah.

i have no idea why i suddenly blogged about this. this entry was just supposed to be a random one but i think its because ive been talking so much with different individuals, its so inspirational. and i just talked about life with wendy. so everythings swimming around in my head. haha.

ohgosh. my blog is a bore. im sorry. i just happen to be a very DEEEEEEEEP person okay. HAHAHA. yes, i just think alot. but hey, you can always hold some deep conversation with me man.

time to be a maid.
loves.

7:50 PM; unforgotten.Y

you know, i think im damn lucky i have ming in my life.
cos i know that no matter what happens, he is one person who wouldn't ever judge me. i can tell him all the shit in the world and i know he would still love me all the same. i totally appreciate him.


thanks cuzzie.
i'll take care of myself, i promise. im more worried about YOU. don't screw your life up okay.

but yeah. even if shit happens, im here. and i'd still love you all the same.

10:08 PM; unforgotten.Y

funny how the numbers in the zoo keep going up, up and up.



mummy and sissy are urging me to quit SC. well, so are a couple of other people. but guess what? im not gonna. not yet atleast. haha. not till i have had all the fun in the world.
yes, work is playtime. its tiring. but im lucky ive got nice people to work with. and they make it more fun. apart from the annoying party-animals i deal with, i meet pretty alright people who make my day too. so thats cool.
nothing makes me happier than having someone say 'thank you, you were awesome. i will come back again for you.' or 'im still staying on here for you.' or 'its only cos of you that im getting more bottles.'

like, im fine with not receiving tips and all yanoe. it just makes me damn glad that atleast i made you experience alittle better and memorable. especially in a club setting where, lets face it, good service is almost impossible to give because there are alot of other aspects involved.
but having people feel happy makes me feel that fighting with the bartenders (not that we actually fight. but theres alot of screaming that lasts for a couple of seconds) and dealing with the host (in a not very nice way) is all worth it.

looks like i wouldn't be stepping back into the kitchen anytime soon then.

6:09 PM; unforgotten.Y

yesterday, rufus' ex girlfriend made my otherwise very boring day a damn entertaining one. she is so. hmm. not quite sure whats the word i should be using. interesting? HAHA.

and rufus was damn nice cos he sent me home. i love you long time man.

hopefully, qiwen comes work, gets a car, and can drive me home next time! HAHAHA. sengkang and bishan very near one lahzzz.

and HH knows like, half of CCM balls. so funny, fancy talking about autumn to an outsider. singapore really damn small lor.




apparently the nightlife industry is really quite shitty. so you should never stay in it unless you want to screw up your life.
Dear Lord, please please please help me remain grounded.

ohwell, but if theres anything, i think kisses really dont mean much to me anymore.
a kiss is just a kiss. unless it gives you an explosion of emotions. for now, every kiss to me, is just another kiss. no biggie yanoe?
oh, and ive been offered a ciggie and/or a puff like a couple of times already. i still don't think its hard to say no. i believe its a choice. not a need.

3:10 PM; unforgotten.Y

tomorrow its gonna be the day everyone screams 'ITS FRIDAYYYYYY!'

supposedly happifying. but. the end of the school week marks the start of work days. ohwell. i figure i should be glad ive got such a happening job, that pays good and lets me have fun eh.

my life probably sounds more eggciting than an average kid's. but when i listen to my friends' life stories, i think mine is awfully mundane. hahah.

yes, all my good friends have such a high life. amin is a lil devil in disguise i swear. hahaha. but i still love you lah deh. NOTHING WILL CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOUUUUUUU.
hopefully, he comes down to pick me up after work for supper tomms balls. i would so be grateful man.

anyway people, coffin is so. blah. dont watch. or maybe it was blah for me cos i walked in like halfway through the show lah. it wasn't that scary though. didn't make me think about anything. and i could sleep real soundly. heh.


am very addicted to bolero by ravel now.
it is sucha beautiful piece of music.

and im so very glad someone finally thinks choirs are complex. YOU KNOW IT WAS SO NICE WHEN MY MUSIC TUTOR SAID THAT. FINALLY NOT THE 'OH CHOIRS ARE SO SLACK AND EASY AND BLAH' COMMENT.

people who say that are such losers. takes alot to stick around in a choir okay! and its not easy. but ohwellllllll. im not in choir anymore so booo. today's tutorial made me miss singing so much. and doing sectionals and screaming at the boys to support and yelling at the girls to sing. okay, i wasn;t THAT tyrannical. but yeah, sometimes, you have to be mean to get the job done.

okay time to pack bag cut nails think of what to wear for work tomms.

gnights. sheena is a very tired girl.

9:24 PM; unforgotten.Y

was just thinking, wondering and being worried.

if someday, i change, being un-sheena-ish anymore, would any of you tell me?

well, if someday i change and lose myself, please do okay?
i haven't changed much since i was in primary school. its just been me.
but i know that supperclub demands more from me. its bringing out a different side of me. and its theopposite of what you people, in normal civilisation are accustomed to.

yes, i mean both outwardly and inwardly.

outward being appearance. i realise im dressing up more these days. and the times that i do really dress up for work, the people there all go 'hey, you look really good. dress up like that more.' etc.
and when i dress up, my character has to match up to whatever it is.

in SC, im more bold. more adventurous.
im still the same. atleast i think i am. its just that i dare to be more experimental over at SC. i appreciate it. but at the same time, im worried that someday i would experiment too much and alienate sheena.

i don't want to be a sheena yall don't recognise anymore. i want to remain grounded. i want to be someone else without losing myself. i want to be a better person if theres anything or anyone else i'd rather be.

if you get what i mean.

i think its amazing what an environment can do to a person. yes, im definitely more liberal in SC. liberal not in the sense where i'd go fuck around (literal sense). but i meant that more in the way im being more affectionate with the people around me. and being more receptive to affections of other people. like i said before, over at work, i get hugged and kissed by people i know and don't know. i get showered with affection by people i like and don't like. these have never been a big deal to me because ive always been pretty open to these. but this much of 'open-ness', if thats how you put it, would never have creeped out if not for the environment i was in.

its like a little self-discovery yanoe? =)

and if theres one thing ive learnt from work, its to never trust a guy. HAHA. really, in a place like that, you see the worst of guys.

okay, i highly doubt i will ever get involved with a guy again. yes, my poor little heart's been traumatised by all that its seen. committing to anyone, will definitely take a long, long time.

[[oh, but please realise, only certain people's opinions of me will be taken into consideration. people who have known me for so darn long (that is, wendy and miao who have grown up and old with me), those whom i know only want the bestfor me and those who have stuck around through thick and thin. and more importantly, the unbiased, and un-judgemental. i so will not appreciate it if you came up to me and said 'you are sucha bitchhhhhh'. HAHA.]]




your kisses are wasted on me, baby.
GOOD NIGHT DARLING




why leave when you claim it is love
but why stay when you're not the only one
she's proved she's strong
be brave be strong

8:24 PM; unforgotten.Y

halloween was great great great. SC made bondage a very sexy thing, with damn artsy photos. i was so amused by all the whipping and spanking (not on me ofcos, haha) i just kept laughing out loud.

and i saw harry potter, loads of joker, mr potato head, scoobydoo, SCREWED-UP-UN-ANGELIC-angels (from hell i swear) and yeah, schoolgirls, harajuku girls, the likes.

danced alot, had fun.

i wanted to talk about stuff so much more. but im too at loss of words. i think i am goign back to bed. yay.



gnights!

10:49 PM; unforgotten.Y

I THINK SHEENA HAS BECOME A CRAZY WILDCHILD THING I FIND IT UBER SCARY. LIKE REALLY, REALLY.



updates later when im back.

1:38 PM; unforgotten.Y