i've been rotting away at home. and i think everyone knows that already. kemund's first words to me on msn were 'hows decomposition going?' THANKS ALOT BRO.
but yeah, all day, im hardly doing anything productive. it is horrible. i wake up at 10 or 11 or 12. and find myself falling back asleep till 3 or 4 or 5. ain't life good.

and i realise alot of things aren't exactly true reflections of me anymore. like this blog. and my friendster profile and photos i have on it. yet, im too lazy to do anything about it. maybe its tiime to make the move to livejournal. =)
online shopping would be so much easier then.

finally, i start to see my schedule getting filled up with meetups and dates. some people i haven't seen in so long. so ireally can't wait to hang out. PREM, YOU'RE ONE OF THEM. and ive yet to meet up with a whole lot more. edmund and liza for example. can't wait to see them cos i haven't seen them in years, literally. i also wonder hows petrina and christine and sam and joey doing. miss them miss them.
perhaps i just want to make time for people who were once a big part of me. but cos we're all in different places now, its so hard. and i know its gonna be tougher when school starts cos guess what, its in school at 7half and out at 6. exciting huh. so yeah, i must make time for important people!

and my thumbdrive just disappeared. damn. come out come out wherever you are. boo.
okay. all's said and done.

goodnight.

12:24 AM; unforgotten.Y

hello hello!

quick update.

QUIT JOB. cos everyone was pissing me off there.
so i am really totally free now people, DATE ME.

CCM BBQ. fun fun fun with o3. LOVE PEOPLE LOVEEEE. life in school would be bullshit without them.

met su ytd to shop for stuff for her soft toy. she planning to make something for her friend so we had to go look for all the cloth and stuff. i just realised spotlight has awesomely cutesy cloth. i wanted to buy them all! i don't know for what though. hahah. and i had subway for the very first time after i got braces! one foot baby! =D yeahhh. so anyway, we just chilled outside dhoby and talked. its been so long since i last did that. so we talked, we bitched, we lauhged. we talked about friends and boys and peace. it was great.

hmm. i actually have loads of things on my mind. like alot of social issues that has caught my attention recently as well as my own reflections. but it is very hard to say it all out.

theres like discrimination. (after watching ellen)
and sex. (after talking to guy friends)
and self esteem. (after watching tyra)

i am sucha talk show person now my gosh! hahaha. but anyhowwwww, yeah, i realise i do have very strong views about certain things now. it must be cos im growing up. see what getting older turns you into? eighteen and almost adult and you start to value some things and opinions more.

oh, and i think PJs are so cool. its perfect for the weather now. can you people buy me cute PJs from La Senza please? or you can just sew me something from the gazillions of pretty cloth sold at spotlight. =D

and and and HEAR YE HEAR YE.
i cleared out my wardrobe and discovered loads of rubbish. certain things thats not my style anymore, and certain things because i lost too much weight i cant fit in anymore. so yeah, people, i have some jeans, pants, tops, skirts, denim skirts, and whatever else that im planning to sell off. text me if interested so i can put pics up. yayyyy. give me money! all cheap cheap one lah. oh yeah, got topshop jeans too! going at 50bucks. but prices are negotiable ofcos.

okay. i want to go do something productive like watch teevee. byeee.

6:12 PM; unforgotten.Y

i am boredddd.

well, basically ive been rotting the past few days away. actually, not really. cos monday was bake party at suzie's.
tuesday was over at su's again to celebrate fulin's bday. initial plan was botanics. but because of the very unpredictable weather and the runaway terrorist, we decided against it. actually, we decided to have it at su's place cos it was easier to prepare stuff and yeah, her garden is big enough to pitch like 4 tents, so picnic at her place would have been cool if not for the rain. the terrorist part only comes in cos fulin's mum wouldnt allow her to go to botanics since there are so many trees and plants and make a great hideout for the fella. but in my opinion, su's place is perfect for hiding too! its big and has sooo many plants. it already looks like the scary part of botanic garden.

su's place is massive anyway. i love the old colonial style windows and her tiles! ohman, vintage please. it is loveeee.

we managed to pursuade fulin to pierce her ears. 18th bday kinda thingyanoe? so yeah. thats about whats been happening.

and i finally managed to chat with randall!!! yay!
bestfriend's doing great! and he helped me shop. LOVES TO YOU! wheeee.

i attempted to search for a new blogskin just now. but i just couldnt find any. and i couldnt think of any tags to type in. so yeah. i shall stick to this old boring one.

oh, and i like having lined eyes. haha. shasha is like the queen man. *kowtows*

so anyway, ytd, su and i were chatting and she showed me this:



i think it is very sad how things got to that stage. i mean, i am not for homosexuality but im not against it either. i know people who are gay and ive been mistaken for one. but i think it is just so sad how someone can get killed because of his sexuality. its like getting persecuted because of religion, or facing sexism or racism. the boys were only 15. so what exactly was the boy taught? that homosexuality is totally unacceptable and you should kill someone who doesn't have the same beliefs as you do?
i think it is very sad how the world has become sucha place. everywhere, people kill. for the smallest things. and the ones they kill are human beings with feelings and emotions and rights too. sometimes, the people they kill might not even know their killers. they were just innocent random people.
i cannot understand why certain people choose to be someone who is so full of hate. i don't know, i guess im just really sad that something like that has to happen to a 15 year old. he had his whole life infront of him, gay or not. he was still human. and it was his friend, the guy he liked, who killed him. isn't that sad?
so people, make the world a better place! be nice. and not be prejudiced. treat everyone equally. and respect the fact that everyone's different and have different opinions and beliefs.

so MAKE LOVE people.
stop the hatred. spread the love.

i don't think i have anything else exciting.
oh, im hooked on your call by secondhand serenade. yes. emo-leemo. haha.

gnights all.

9:49 PM; unforgotten.Y