hiiiiiiiiiiiii.

i havent blogged since ancient times!
im surviving. works cool.

ytd though, was horrid. cos i was so so so exhausted. like i dont know why. i just felt like i was running around 20million places. doing this that and nothing. i was seriously tired to my bones okay. and it was so bad i couldnt even entertain wendylee. HAHAHAHA.

i shhsh-ed her. BUT YOU KNOW I STILL HEART YOU RIGHTTTT.
thank you for waiting bestie. you know i appreciate it right. and sorry, ytd could have totally been more fun for you if you knew the guys better and if we weren't so drop dead tired. we'll go again. i promise it'll be better.

yeah so anyway. i went to rebel ytd to meet the boys. crazy fun shit. i totally dig the boys man.
oh and jagerbombbbbbbbbbbb! our train was abit short but still cool. hahaha. oh shit i just had the coolest idea. we should have bought like loads of jagerbombs and form the train around the perimeter of the table. so it goes one whole round. hahahah. okay its not cool i know. but stilllllll. when i have moolah okay.

can someone buy me jagermeister for my bday. thank you.

yeah so anyway, ytd was a good day.

and i am very very very patronising towards high and drunk people. HAHAHA. i'll be like 'okay. yesyes. blahblahblah...okay?' i dont know why. its almost like a sudden burst of niceness!haha. eh, so if yall want me to be nice to you get high and drunk. esp if u're my good friend. IM USUALLY MEANER TO MY CLOSEST. BUT IF YOU HIGH OR WHAT WAH, I SWEAR IM DAMN NICE TO YOU.

so okay, lets all get high together.
birthdays. are afterall just another excuse to go out there. party. get high. and live life.



disclaimer:
no, i dont think partying all the time is 'living life'. i dont think im a party animal either. okay, maybe i am. i party quite alot. but i dont give up on the morals i hold on to. just because i party doesnt mean im gonna have one night stands or dirty dance or do drugs. and i think its sad how people tend to judge the moment they see photos of you in a club. (and they neglect normal photos of you. like those of you having home parties or picnics. etc. )

and honestly right. the only time i actually feel i have a life is when im partying. because ever since internship started, my entire days are spent in chalk. I HAVE NO LIFE (shar will say i have no neh i have no neh i have no neh. hahahahaha) come on people. date me on monday yaw.


welcome back patsy.
take care wenzhen.

if your name starts with C, D, E, J, L, M, P, Q, R, S, T, W,
and you know who you are,
you know i love you.

10:36 AM; unforgotten.Y

i would swallow bumble bees for you.
i've been swallowing bumble bees for you.
i don't think you've even noticed.
i don't think you even know.


works been good i suppose. sure, the hours have been crazy shit. and i probably am the only one whos working my ass off, getting paid shit and my hours are prolly one half or twice that the average of what everyone else is working.

am i happy though? i guess.

mac asked me yesterday 'do you regret coming here? like, honestly.'
i told him no.
and i truly meant it.

as much as he wants the place to work. so do i. even if not for him. or for the others. its for me. for my resume.


i would carry tons of bricks for you.
i've been carrying tons of bricks for you.
i don't think you've even noticed.
i don't think you even know.


jeri (shes marcus' bestfriend's daughter. and i met her at a event we had where she happened to help out. the only other parttimer i could talk to. shes really nice.) popped by the other day after the flea she was at. and she was so sweet. she gave me a pair of earrings she made. i thought that was very nice of her. people like that make my day.

and i met alot of ncie customers on saturday as well. even though i broke and dropped alot of stuff. HAHA.
days like that help me with tahan-ing and not spit into peoples food.

i finally saw zhen ytd after i dontknow how long. its been ages really!
and dee and her made my day. i heart them.

i miss a ton of people. i'll see you all soon i hope?


i would walk away from you.
i've been walking away from you.
i don't even think you've noticed.
i don't even think you know.

12:46 PM; unforgotten.Y

HIIIIII.

TOMORROW, IS SCHOOL.
I LOVE.

WHY, COS I GET TO SEE OLDFACES AND BITCHFIT AND RANT AND RAVE AND SCREAM AND GO CRAZY AND DO STUPID THINGS.
YAY.

its 17weeks and 2 more days to FREEEEEDOMMMMMMMMMMM. yayhayhooray!

and to one of my bestest:
hello CHERQIWEN. I HOPE YOU GOT LUCKY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! beer can get you very far im sure. yeah, if you see this, im gonna get slaughtered.


and. i miss shar. i miss sitting and chilling with beer and just chatting. i miss getting high and screaming along to mr brightside at velvet on the podium. HAHAHAH.
i miss bak chor mee chardonnay with grenadine and the other shit we do.

okay, in all honesty. i miss partying. i just simply totally miss the freedom.

its gonnabe last day for edric and don tomms. I HOPE THEY HAVE FUN CREATING SOME SEXYTIME. hahahah.

3:38 AM; unforgotten.Y