EXAMS ARE OVER!
yayyyyyy!

papers this time round seem quite okay. I WILL NOT NEED TO GO FOR SUPP PAPERS. NO SUPP NO SUPP NO SUPP.

woooooohooooo.


so yeah, thats the most exciting thing thats happened so far in my life. is it boring or is it boring.



randall's leaving for US on the 1st of march. im gonna miss you best friend! =(



now, SLEEP.

11:55 PM; unforgotten.Y

i feel like chilling out of the blue.

timbre or brewerks anyone?




okay, maybe its just cos i don't want to start studying. pom is rubbish. rubbish rubbish rubbish. people who take management go AYE!

haha. okay.off to school to mug with randall and mike. (i am already very very late. i think i'll only get there at 3 when i was supposed to be there at like, 1half? hahah.)

1:49 PM; unforgotten.Y

wooohoo people! i am actually blogging after so many many many months of procrastination.

to update from last year where i stopped.

i passed microecons!

on 2nd december, mama went back home to meet her Father, her son and brownie. she looked quite peaceful when i saw her, which i am thankful for.
lets just say that i still feel the pain. but it isnt as bad as how it was in the initial stages. sometimes, i still find myself thinking she's alive only to open my wallet and find her picture staring serenely back at me. and then it hits me, "hey, she's gone." my only regret would be that i didnt spend enough time with her before she passed away because i was so busy with projects and evrything at that time. the day she passed away on was sunday and i was actually thinking of visiting her on monday. but it was too late. the feeling kinda sucks but i guess, these things dont matter when i'll be seeing her in heaven yeah? it must have taken alot of guts to take her last breath, knowing how much she feared death before she got baptised. i only hope that when she breathed her last, she felt no pain and was happy and had God holding onto her.
we've visited her grave quite a number of times and i like where she's situated at. its right next to the giant field and i bring a carnation with me everytime i go. its gonna be a ritual for me. cos carnations stand out from the orchids and greengreen grass. well, she loves all things pretty, including flowers. maybe thats where i got my love for pretty things from. =)
to mama: i hope to see you soon. i never really got to learn all the cooking i wanted to learn from you. but one day, i will cook as well as you did. and i will do everything to glorify God and you. if one day you don't agree with the people i hang out with and the guys i date, please pay me a visit and let me know. i love you and you will always be a part of me and a part of my kids though they may not know you.

on the same day that mama passed away, my grandad (from my mum's side) suffered a stroke. two days later, he passed away. yeah, my family was stuck between two wakes, rushing back and forth. we weren't allowed to sent grandad off to get cremated though. due to superstitions. if you ask me, i'd say screw all that shit. (yeah, his funeral was the traditional chinese, buddhist kind) but ahwell, im glad kongkong did not have to suffer. God bless him.

you know what was really weird? the way grandad and mama looked when they passed away was exactly the same. the only difference was that when i was with mama, i felt more at peace. God's so amazing.
in the 49 days that grandad passed away, he came back to visit me. which was nice of him cos atleast he let me know he still remembered me after forgetting he had me as a grandaughter in the last few years of his life. so for that, thank you kongkong. i hope you start a kopitiam in your afterlife again. earn lotsa money and upgrade your house, get more servants, and own bigger better cars! if you need anything, you can make your presence felt again and we'll be sure to fold lots and lots and lots of paper money for you again. am i sad kongkong wasn't saved? yeah, i am. but i guess since he came back and visited everyone and everyones well and good, then i guess he's doing alright huh? i hope. i was praying like crazy for him though. ahwell. till i see you again grandaddy.

now, my i have only one grandmama left so i shall visit her as often as i can and be a good grandaughter!

oh, one thing that pissed me off real bad during my grandmother's wake? this supposed 'leader' from new creation. my cousin asked for someone from church to pray for my grandma while she was still in hospital and they sent this guy called RICHARD down. God bless him with the qualities needed in a leader especially one that deals with people and their problems. he was not one bit tactful! when i arrived at the hospital on the day my grandma passed away and yes i was very distraught, he comes up to me and says "oh, so are you in DARE?" and other questions pertaining to my 'commitment' to the church. and bloody hell you asshole, my grandma just passed away and you ask me all these shit without even the slightest bit of sympathy. i dont NEED your sympathy but hello? if you're a leader then surely you need more tact and more grace and more WISDOM. you need more people skills you bloody creep. then at other times of the wake, he acted like he was in charge, he came and started preaching without thinking of how other people will feel, he told my aunty (in very harsh tones, mind you) to stop crying when the were bringing the casket away and started preaching. like is he an airhead or what? my aunty is the daughter and obviously she was sad! if she wants to cry and let it out, let her. no doubt my grandma is going to heaven but you should just shut up and let people have their own time to cry and gather their feelings. RICHARD was even rude to the pallbearers! (who were dead damn professional and more tactful and respectful to both the dead and the living compared to richard) and at the cemetery, he started directing the pallbearers what to do, screamed at one of the guys and was standing infront directing how the coffin should be placed when it had NOTHING to do with him. it was the duty of my dad and cousin, not HIM. and then when we wanted to throw dust and flower in, that RICHARD actually said 'no no, no need. thats not what you do for christians' but at other family funerals, my family did that. but since he put it that way, what could we say right?
plus! on the day the cortege was leaving, everyone came over. the guests were there, pallbearers were dressed so smartly and early but guess what. we had to WAIT for darling RICHARD and pastor to come. and richard didnt even have the decency to call us to say 'im sorry, we'll be late'! my cousin had to call him only to find out he was STILL in church and he still dared to say 'oh, don't worry. we'll be there soon lah' SCREW YOU LAH. YOU MAKE THE LIVING WAIT FINE. YOU MAKE THE DEAD WAIT FOR YOU ALSO. and yanoe, they came only to give a prayer which was less than five minutes long. and what did they pray for? GOOD WEATHER.
hello my dear, anyone could have prayed for that. i could have led the prayer. even trinity could! cos you dont have to be a pastor or a leader of a church before God answers your prayer!

because of this whole entire 'fiasco', im really put off with NCC. cos i mean, sure sermons are good and all. but they always say they choose leaders cos God guided them to choose that person or something like that. but i mean, seriously, if richard can be a leader, then i think i would be able to make one too. i think i can handle situations like that with more tact and more love and more grace. im not afraid to let people read this. if Pastor Prince reads this, all the more better (if you're from NCC, HELLO! *waves* don't ever let richard handle a funeral again okay?) even though i think he'll want to send me for counselling and meet all the DARE and ARROW leaders or something. and force me to forge Godly kingdom friendships with the many other good kids in church. HAHAHA. okay fine. im really done ranting i guess. i just needed to get all that out cos i really CANNOT respect a leader like that and it has really disappointed me and the faith i had in the church (no, not in God).
originally, i wanted to write in to the church. but due to certain personal (more like family) reasons, i decided not to. so yeah. if someone chances upon this rant and you know who richard is, HAHAHA. good luck. to me or to him i don't know lah. but still. if i see him in church i will walk past him and bet you 10bucks he will walk past me pretending he didn't notice me (even if he did!). cos i am aware i was really unfriednly and even rude to him but since he didn't deserve it, goodbye my friend. may God give you better qualities before you make the dead come alive, the living to die and happy people see hell. till anything like that happens, i will pray that you do not handle anyone's problems. AMEN! (go on, agree with me people, AGREE! hahhaha)

okay im done with ranting. i am happy happy now. oh yeah, to those who were with me during the very unhappy episode in my life, thank God for you. He bless you abundantly and love surround you guys always okay. i heart yall plenty.

now, i am so glad projects and all are wayyy over. projects this time round was really not that bad. presentations were good except for POM (i was way too sleepy to present. i only got more awake during role play which was hella fun cos everything was impromptu and it was great!) oh and people please pray i pass french. my role play was horrid. but in Jesus' name those 3 idiotic credit units are mine mine MINEEEEEEEE!

christmas and new years was great fun. never had a more happening one. KINONN ACTED IN THE DRAMA!! he was good! i really cracked up when i saw him cos it was just so him yanoe, so... DRAMA. hahaha.

valentines day was fun. i love spending it with the girls. to sheri, thank you for accompanying me through the crowded crowded sea of couples and bouquets! and thank you for the flower so i felt less like a loser tech geek. hahaah. cos you see, everywhere i turned to, people were holding on to gazillions of flowers and all while i was carrying my laptop. but i like geeks okay!
to wendy, weiyann and wenzhen aka Ws love to yall!
to dinesh, sue, sam, yanti, thank you for the cards. they are love!
to randall, thank you for evertyhing. the food and card. i appreciate it all. loves.

oh oh oh! chinese new year was cool too. cos i had reunion dinner with my direct family, with my aunty and cousins and all, and yann and zhen! love to them all too.


and...

I CLEARED MY ROOOOOOM! I CAN SEE THE FLOOR!! YAYYYYY!

while sorting through the stuff in my boxes, i looked through my box filled with letters and all from people. and its really quite sad to see how people who were once so close to you just disappear like that from your life. i have a great bunch of friends now, i am happy but at the same time, you look back and think how come these people are no longer a part of you? or no longer as close to you? and you wonder if you could have done something to make the relationship better or if you could somehow become good friends again.

so if these people read my entry, i just wanted you to know that i really miss you guys and that friends or not now, you people have helped me become who i am now and that whatever friendship we had in the past, it was all genuine on my side okay?
from speedlight: avian, serene, sarah. from 1e2: nicolette, siti, haziq, faiz, herman, jiasheng, marinah. from 2e4: yuentuck, weiloon from 3e4: glenda, claudine, samuel.

to my clique. i love you more than words can say and i somehow so totally wish you guys were in TP.


anywayyyy. I HAVE BRACES! *beams* its red and gold currently. i got it for CNY. my dentist suggested the colour. hahaha. so funkaye please.
and i just extracted 2 teeth today! it made me feel so miserable cos i couldnt dirnk and i was thirsty and i couldnt feel the right side of my mouth and yeahhh. but its all cool now! no more bleeding. so yay hooray.i figure eating's gonna be abit of a problem though. shall see what i can do. go on liquid diet with me okay people!

and guess what? on saturday a surprise person added me on msn. yes im happy we're talking again and its good to hear from him and everything. but i can't help but wonder if he's gonna stick around or disappear as suddenly as he appeared yanoe. we'll see if he's a friend. haha.

PEOPLE! DID YOU GUYS WATCH ACROSS THE UNIVERSE?! IT IS SO DARN GOOD! GO BUY DVD OKAY. and and and the soundtrack is LOVEEE. well, they're all covers of beatles' so if you hate beatles then i guess, nah, wrong movie for you.

I WANT TO WATCH MOOOVIE. like juno, the diving bell and buttefly, the leap year and i can't remember what else. but yeah. loads of them.

AND MY MANAGER HASN'T GIVEN ME MY DECEMBER PAY YET! !@##%$%^%$#@!@$@%^#&*((*&^%$#@
gonna hound her man.

okay, i have to study now. im assuming its enough words to make up for the past few months eh?
loves to all.

oh, and i feel really happy when i listen to this. its my current love (after a very long time)

God Is Great by Hillsongs


i think the male lead's voice is just so nice. melts.


byebye.

6:59 PM; unforgotten.Y