it started out with a kiss
how did it end up like this
it was only a kiss
it was only a kiss

chinese new year is a bore.

ytd was cool. cos i randomly met miao and qiwen and lionel for drinks.

and i got to see adrian and zq cos wewent to helipad.

and i want a lexus now cos the rides damn smoooooth. car damn chio.

i am feeling highly unmotivated for school. i wish it wasn't service tomorrow yanoe. im starting to get so pained about being nice to people. okay, maybe not, i just don't want hols to end.

maybe, i would feel better. if only.

ohyeah, i had my first flaming btw. pretty cool. i love the fire. haha. if only botak flaired. then that would have been awesomest shit.

and did i mention i love my cousin? well, yeah, i love him man. bestest ever.

i am feeling very lost at the moment too. save me balls.

and who wants to go check out villa bali with me? =))

jealousy turning saints into the sea
swimming through sick lullabies
choking on your alibi
but its just the price i pay
destiny is calling me
open up my eager eyes
cos im mr brightside.

9:50 PM; unforgotten.Y

happy moomoo year yall!

chinese new year doesnt feellike chinese new year at all. i don't know. just feels very un-exciting. maybe cos mama isn't around anymore and not being able to visit her just makes iit feel like a drag. yanoe, no more mango people, no more good food, no more all that.

reunion dinner ytd was cool tho. just my family. drinking beer and moscato. it was nice. makes me wonder next time, when i getmarried, i will make sure i come home for reunion dinner. cos even though you're supposed to be going to the guy's side, its like, hello, my parents only have 2 girls, cannot let them eat laone right! haha. unless, i marry a non chinese lah, then settles the problem.

and i went to some thai club after work on sat. it was so funny i swear. i was damn amused. but quite fun lah. service there not bad also.

i want to eat curry. curry curry curry.

whos free to go out tonihgt. lets go chill out. =)

10:44 AM; unforgotten.Y

HI, I THINK I AM SCREWING MY LIFE UP.

DAMN WINE.

but yeah. I AM SCREWING MY LIFE UP.

cos of projects.

goodnight.

2:22 AM; unforgotten.Y

i think im playing with fire. i think im screwing up my life. oh man.

yeah, okay, i think im just feeling guilty for thinking about skipping accounts test.

yes, im ditching the test. bearing with the consequences can come later.


shiatzzzz. i am sucha horrid kid right now. hahah.

but you know what? i think i've always been this way. since i was a kid. but i just weigh pros and cons alot too.
yeah, i admit, ima loser. im scared of getting into trouble. i only break the rules when i know im safe. hahah.

afterall, you're only bad when you get caught right?


DEAR LORD, PLEASE DON'T LET ME GET BURNT. =)))


i am looking at the photos from miao's random bday get together. and i think its amazing how we've been friends for so long. i thank God we met when we were kiddies. cos if we met each other now, i think we would hate each other. like what zq told me before, girls with attitudes can either get along really well, or they'll end up hating the guts out of each other. i think with miao and i, it'll be the latter if we met now. HAHA.

she has more attitude than i do please. belardy scary i swear. i don't even know what to expect from her sometimes. hahaha. take last wed for example. ohmyflyingtian. damn crazy. my heart can't take that kinda interogation session again. yes, only deedee will know. HAHA.

but yeah. im thankful for the girls who have been in my life. iknow they won't judge. i know they'll be totally honest with me. and i know they will kick me if one day i stop being me. you know i love you two.

i think im really lucky. ive got great friends. =) yall make me feel love. very very loved. and you give me all the support i ever need. and i wanna be that to yall too.

another resolution for this year eh. to be there for people. to make them feel loved.

1:10 PM; unforgotten.Y

gaaa. it's minggg said:
yay
gaaa. it's minggg said:
1 week till i see u
gaaa. it's minggg said:
haha
gaaa. it's minggg said:
abit random
gaaa. it's minggg said:
=D


and thats why i love ming. MISS HIM LIKE KRAZEEZZ.
you made my day babyyyyyy!

3:54 AM; unforgotten.Y

so much has changed.

i think ive been a happy girl until yesterday. yanoe, i never knew i could be so affected by someone's leaving. i didn't cry. but i just felt so bloody pained the entire day.
amazing how a few months could change so much.


someone said "why are the prettiest things in life the hardest to get? look at those lilies, they're right in the middle of the pond, and you'll never get them."

and not being able to get it only makes you want it more.




i hope to see people happy this year. =)
i hope they get the prettiest things, even if its so hard to get them. i hope they let go, move on, and smile. i hope they up their self worth. i hope they know that theres so much more to life. i hope they hold on to what they believe in without losing themselves. i hope they find peace within themselves.
i just hope to see people happy this year.

and i think everyone likes mr brightside by the killers cos somehow or another, you relate to the song.
jealousy. lust. love. sensitivity.
well, it was only a kiss. or, maybe not.

i hope the killers come to singapore soon. oh and the strokes too.

ohyeah. im getting bored of nightlife by the way. haha. dream job for many i know, but not exactly mine. i've lost the drive to work already.

yanoe, im still a pub-ber at heart. i still love sitting down somewhere and chilling and just talking.
i club because i work in a club. when i say its job scope, it really is.
once i give up nightlife, i give up my clubbing days too. and sheena is going back to being a good girl. HAHA. abit late to turn back since ive made so many friends and chances are, they will ask everyone out to clubzz. but partying with my favourites are fun and i would sneak out of the house for it i guess. hahah.
hopefully though, we don't end up with casualties.




i am going back to sleep. yesterday was too much drama.

forbidden love. forbidden fruit. forbidden.



oh and kiddies, never trust an italian.
don't say i didn't warn you. =)

S, im gonna miss you. i really am gonna miss you like crazy.

2:06 PM; unforgotten.Y

too much of a high life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY HAPPY HIGH BESTFRIEND FROM YEARS AGO. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU AND I'LL BUY YOU 19 TEQUILA SHOTS IF I COULD AFFORD IT. (thank goodness i couldn't, or i think you wouldnt need to get up for school)





ps. i love happy drunks.
pps. i love miao more. =) happy 19th bitch.



i kinda can't wait to quit work now. for some odd reason. too many things are changing. and i need to remain a normal sane person.

10:54 AM; unforgotten.Y

"What is it that makes Western Australia wines unique?"

im gonna attempt to do the essay. soon.
i don't feel like writing it and sacrificing sleep honestly. but i guess i should atleast TRY.

and ive another reason for trying too.

ari's leaving for australia in 2 days. or 1 more day actually. i will miss him. and he's making it alot harder cos he's sad and it just makes me sad too. like, its amazing to know how much i actually mean to him, i think its sweet. =)

so perhaps, perhaps, if i manage to get the wine scholarship, i might be able to visit him there! but ohwell. we'll see how things go.

i so want the scholarship. cos i wanna go out there and see the world. learn new stuff. i think it'll be suchan awesome experience really. but my nose is sucha letdown sometimes it annoys me.

ari ari ari. i don't know when i'll ever see you again once you fly off. but i would definitely miss you as hell. i know you're gonna disappear from my life again for who knows how long this time, but till the time you pop right back again, you know you've got a friend in me. hopefully, i get to go to australia. you shall be host and i will live off you. =) lovelovelove my dear.

11:16 PM; unforgotten.Y

thank goodness i decided not to have a resolution that says 'not get hangover every other weekend'.

yeah, first weekend of the new year and i am pretty gone.

crazy kickass drama. my life has too much of it. time to get out of nightlife. just a month more. =)

but i tell you. shar, sarah, charlie, zq. i love you.

shar and sarah, my fav party girls. friday.



resolution of the year should be keep zq away from zouk. HAHAHA.

10:52 AM; unforgotten.Y