i feel as if im living my life backwards. or someone keeps pushing the rewind button everytime i start moving forward.

its like i get out of feeling all weird, and then i'll be face with random rubbish that makes me feel like how i did before.

ahwells.

10:44 PM; unforgotten.Y

i havent felt inclined to blog cos ive got nothing to rant about.
Neither am i going to share my happiness with the world wide web.

Ive been happy. Emotional. Thankful.

My life has been good so far. Ive made it out of poly (yes! Believe it or not! Sheen's gonna graduate -then again, i always make it out alive even tho i dont exactly have wonderful grades- without having to stay back for another sem or having to face any supp papers etc!)

Ive got good friends.
the boyf is wonderful.
The boyf's boyfs are great.

All im lacking's like a job. Haha.
While im really enjoying my bummer lifestyle, the fact that i dont have any income coming in makes me damn depressed. I dont like having the guy to pay for everything. And i want to be able to take cash out and spend it, on myself, on the people around me.

Need. A. Job.
Soon.

Hurhur.

Of late, some friends of mine have turned out to be really weird. And its not cool. I wish i could do something to help.

i think i should start saving up so i can get ed a k-mix. Its red, its so him. Plus its cheeeeeap!
Besides, i'll be able to use it too. Woopwoop!

I love porridge for supper btw.

Weather these couple of days have been so awesome for sleeping and/or just lazing around the house doing word searches and the likes.

Uni application's a bitchface. Damn mafan, kill me.

Watched kidnapper today. Not too bad tho slightly draggy at some parts.

Im tired. Bedtime. Nightnight

3:25 AM; unforgotten.Y

i think i am possibly the most insecure girlfriend in the world. So bad that its not something people can understand, especially the boyf.

I am not insecure about myself.
neither am i about the other half.
I am just slightly apprehensive when it gets to the circumstances.

Im not even sure how it should even be phrased.
or perhaps this one line is good enough.

I have lost faith in true love, trust and loyalty.

4:11 AM; unforgotten.Y

once again, when you don't know what to decide, you leave it to the Almighty.

some might call it the easy way out,
i'll call this faith.

that everything is planned. and everything planned for me is good.

so if the call comes, and i actually for once, answer it, it's a yes.
if they never call me again, or it just becomes some other missed call, i guess it never was meant to be.

either way, good ego boost for me i guess. its nice to be thought of. ^^

and i know no matter what i choose, even if it means less time with me, the boyf will still be supportive. and thats really important to me. because i know my family would stand by me and the close friends would be happy as long as i am. i thank God i have one of the most selfless boyf's ever in history, and he places my happiness before himself.

so yeah. we'll see if the call comes.

i love you.

1:34 AM; unforgotten.Y

i swear xin jia po is puny. Everybody knows somebody who knows somebody who knows somebody who knows everybody.

Like i just found out that weiyann's friend (whom i've met before) knows mark's girlfriend (whom i've spoken to a few times before) who is also jessica's (my used to be close friend in sunday school) bestfriend. And weiyann's friend's sister is friends with sean's friend.

Six degrees of seperation is really true. Except in singapore, i think all you need's like 3degrees or less. Haha.

Like how charlie's friend is also friends with jacky who knows edi and ily and lester. And how sarah is friends with jeshua and russell who dated su's friend who is also daphne's close friend. and how lydia is eileen's cousin or somebody and lydia's friend is friends with sandra who happens to be great friends since sec school with louisa who knows rufus' current squeeze, kris, who was jc mates with sep. And sep knows pq who is ed's favourite barmaid and zq's sister.

Singapore is small lor.
So if you ever think you can like get away with cheating on your other half, or murder, or whatever else, think again.
Especially with things like facebook, tells your life story completely man.
This is why, smart cheaters and players never ever keep a asingle account on facebook and the likes.


Alrights. done with bewilderment. Bedtime. Nightnights. Loveyou.

3:23 AM; unforgotten.Y