if you trust me more than you trust yourself like you told me, listen and believe me this once. I would never want to hurt you. And i would never bring you down. Because i love you.




I am sucha happy girl today because i got to sleep and sleep and sleep! Awesomenesssss. Weather was so perfect too. I love rainy days. Cuddle up in bed with some chill out house and you get bliss.

I so want to go for fuel! Really good line up this time. Block party, guru josh (infinity!!), ej (!!!), shidy (dont really like him as a person, but on a good day, his music is good) blahblah. I cant remember the line up. But methinks its gonna be really decent. So whos with meeeee.

Ohoh. and drinks are gonna be a blast i swear! Hehehe.

Shall upload peektures if im not too lazy later. So the girls will stop bitching about me infront of me. Hahaha. I love yall!

Countdown begins. 7days to vietnam! So eggciting can. We have someone coming to get us from the airport and stuff. How fun!

And im thinking of getting a lomo before i go To viet. So atleast ive got more concrete memories of the place. I think digicams are absolutely a great invention but theres so much it can't do unlike film cameras.

Alrights byebye.

Ps. To the hongkytongs, all the best! I hope you own the competition man.

10:41 PM; unforgotten.Y

butter was filled sibei many many much much cbam i tell you. Don't know what cbam means? Go figure.

Am very angsty. Because i am very tired. And someone's text before i entered the club kinda pissed me off.

But when i got in, boom boom shake shake. It was like gaga all over again man. Awesome shit other than for the cbamSSSS. always stand near policemen whom you recognise but refuse to acknowledge. Hahaha

Okay, yanoe i think i like the house elektro crowd because you get alot of personal space. You dance you move no one tries anything funny. But with the rnb crowd, ohmytian just kill all those dickheads. Especially the cbams. They have to learn to back off when hello, am not interested in dancing with you or have you anywhere near me. Annoying Buggers them.

And no, just because you party doesnt automatically make you a slut or thereabouts. Can't the idiotic male species understand that not all females want to get laid in the back alley of the club? Or dry eff on the dancefloor? Geez. ohohoh thinking with the wrong head i hearrr. damn straight.

On a lighter note! Moosik was good company was great. I love. But i think im starting to hate partying. After not partying for so long, i think ima homegirl right noow. Oh and don't say i didnt tell you, cute bartender (who looks so much like cheney) spotted at butter! Beams.

Cbam cbam cbam.


Walking home just now with the nice morning breeze and still dark, quiet path reminded me of the time zq and i hopped off the cab at some ulu corner of sengkang and walked home. Maybe i thought of him also because he randomly texted me today. But yeah, i figure its a nice memory i'll always keep of him.
We're always walking. And i guess thats something we both will remember even after we lose contact someday.

Yanoe how they say you dont have to change friends if you understand friends change? Well, maybe thats why i still have my friends. But i guess im still unsure of how to deal with drastic changes. no reason was offered. I'd like to know, really. Or maybe it really was cos i was annoying.

I used to not understand the others perspectives. But right now i understand the desperation they felt. But in a way, they're luckier. They still have you in so many aspects. All i have of you? Just a couple of assets. That would ultimately go back to your side, away from me.

Ohwell. So long farewell!

6:47 AM; unforgotten.Y

we are all messed up.
We are all messed up.
We are all messed up
We are all messed up.
We are all messed up.




But i'll tell you a secret. I'll take you back with open arms the moment you turn around and be yourself again. Really.

2:02 AM; unforgotten.Y

ohmygosh, i so wish i can get my own apartment soon! then i'll host dinner at my place, dim warm lights and awesome house music in the background. cool shit no? haha.

yayness. dear God, please give me my own apartment soon. i don't have to have all the prada-s and gucci-s and louboutins. as long as i have an uber nice place all to myself. =)))

sean finally returned me my whites. haha. he has this weird fetish with mr ramsay's look. i think its really blah. but somehow he thinks he looks very cool. whatever makes him happy lorrr.
was good to see him after so long anyway. bestie flying away alreadyyyyy.
dont come back with my agnes b, dont come and talk to me.


and i know ive said this 20million times already but eddie's moosik taste seriously damn shiok. i love!



sheena is going to fly a unicorn over the rainbow.
because the one who'll be unicorns and rainbows has flown away.

gnights.

ps. im feeling happier everyday. because
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change. the courage to change the things i can. and the wisdom to know the difference.

2:05 AM; unforgotten.Y

i think im happy.
or should i say, more accepting.

ive gone on to accept the fact that you walked away. and its kinda nice in a way. cos atleast i can say ive kept my promise, as best as i could.
and yeah, its just. well, not that bad now that ive accepted this friendship is nothing more. its good i havent depended so much on you.

as much as i would like to believe you meant it when you said 'you're important to me', i really can't. cos if i really was, you would never have done what you did.
you would never turn away and just leave without saying a word. you came back the last time you left. but im not expecting you to return anymore.

we were good as we were. and thats the best we'll ever be. real friends don't hurt friends the way you did to me. so yeah. i guess thats why you're so faraway now.

i was so disappointed and hurt by you. but its all good now. i'll still smile and say hello. but i could never hang around and just wait for you to come over and hug me again.
dont apologise because you're just gonna repeat what you did.
and no, saying 'you're important to me' wouldnt help things as well. because really, if i were, prove it.

yes, i guess im stil diappointed and hurt. but yeah, im happy now. better to walk out earlier than later right?

i have so much i could tell you. but you disappeared. so remember okay, i was here. you weren't. because you were suffocated. suffocated enough to suffocate the rest around you. i was the loser. i couldnt deal with it.

you are a disappointment to me. always will be.
remember that.

12:46 AM; unforgotten.Y

im a wuss.

8:29 PM; unforgotten.Y

i gave in to temptation.






wish i didnt miss you
awesome song. ed's song taste is so rad. yay.



ohno, im so not gonna pick that one up.

2:10 PM; unforgotten.Y

i will not give in to temptation.

1:37 AM; unforgotten.Y

sometimes i wonder why i care when the whole world's walking away.

I never understood why they would choose to turn their backs. But now i do.

Maybe its time to turn away, sheena.
Maybe then, you'll be appreciated.
Maybe.



gummy bear is working at chalk tomorrow! I hope he stays on. Its so sad i cant be there. Haha. I am going to text him like right now! Im so scared he'll scold people. Hahah. Like how he scolded me. Boo. But we're cool now. Awesome friends us. Hah. And yes, he's a constant. Always there when i need someone. Always there on my bad days. always surprising me with random phone calls. xoxo!

I had a talk with marcus today. He said he'll hunt me down if i leave the industry in the next 2 years. Hahahah. Edvan says hes not going to rent me a bunk in obs when rhat happens. =( feel the love from both my bosses. haha. Naw. I heart them. Edvan's cool. So is mac.
Will be starting kitchen next week. If not for favour, i honestly wouldnt go work lor. chalk's like Ohana. Mac's like daddy. So yes, that explains it all.

and i can't wait for next sat to come. We're gonna party so hard, so hard. Club hop baby! Probably the usual though. Butter, zouk. Maybe living room. Then crash at amin's. Brunch somewhere. Sex and the city. Awesome shit. Jagerbombs!!!! Am so gonna ask roy and boys to go too! Would be so fun man. Have my girlfriends and my boys. Then we'll prolly see the usual party people (eyecandeeeeee!!!). Wheeeeeeee. Bliss i tell you. Repeat of gaga would be good actually. Heh. Ohman. I gotta feeling's playing in my head right now.


Ohohoh! And im going to vietnam! Yay! Okay byebye. Going malacca soon.

shall dream myself to sleep. Gnights. Goodmorning.


And i missed snake by just a bit today. =(( sadddzxzxz

3:05 AM; unforgotten.Y

...tonight's gonna be a good night.


loving the song! it makes me feel happy. and watching the vid makes me want to party with my favourite people.


its such an instant pick me up song. need it so bad right now because i've just been having to deal with annoying self centred selfish egocentric people.

you know whats scary?

when you find yourself losing respect for the one close to you.
because you see a side of them you don't want to see.
and you see a side you cannot accept.

regardless of reason. or sound judgement.

you. just. can't. accept. it.

yeah, maybe its me. it's always me anyway. so why bother saying what i feel anymore? because ultimately, it's your life. and im not a part of it.

you get hurt by what is said.
i get hurt by what is not.

goodbye.

11:30 AM; unforgotten.Y

eddie is sending me all these awesome songs! i love!
its so chill out house. very hed kandi-ish. xoxox
i officially love ed's music taste.

walking around art friend today made me realise (again) how different i am from all my other friends. i saw a tie dye kit which i thought was uber cool. but i figured no one's actually gonna tiedye with me. so no fun.
and then walking around and looking at music, i realised once more how different i am. i bought a yanni cd at 8bucks. absolutely love the music. it makes me feel peaceful. which is so totally what i need right now really. haha.

yeah so anyway, i think i need to make more friends. i dont hae enough to actually keep up with what i like. in terms of music. artsy stuff. ohman.

i caught up today! awesome movie. it was so sad! but horribly sweet. a secret, well not so secret now, always wished to die before the people i love so i wouldnt ever have to bear with the pain. selfish aint i? i know.
anyhow. UP makes us all dream of a love like that. so steadfast and heartwarming. its like childhood lovers can. walao. made me want to go find a childhood sweetheart, get married, live happily ever after and die okay. oh top that with a flying house tied to hundreds of colourful helium balloons haha.

and then i remember.
oh guess what sheena, you dont have anyone whos exactly like you. you wont have someone who'll live to a nice old age and still decide to picnic, go for choir concerts, take photos, cook, bake, do artsy stuff, read with youuuuu.
see, never. be a misfit.
hahaha.





oh and by the way, i think, flings are not worth your time. so get over them. if a guy makes out with you in private but doesn't even hold your hand in public, its time to tell him to eff off. yes, no matter who the hell he is.

2:12 AM; unforgotten.Y

happy couples remind me of what i've forgotten. What it feels like to be in love. what it feels like to be the centre of someone's universe. What it feels like to be the first one thought of.

Yup, i've forgotten them all.

1:39 AM; unforgotten.Y

red dot last night was awesome! Good company, good food, good beer, good music, good ambience, good service.

so yeah, im glad zhen enjoyed herself. Next week for mcmc. cooooolios.

I love having my social life back! Haha. I know im gonna get bored of the hols soon but im currently enjoying it as much as i can and doing things that i would have done but couldn't do because of work.

Im spending so mcuh cash on food its sinful. But its alright. I'll take it as investment. Hahaha. On a bigger tummy.

Eddie wants to work at chalk and i hope he does. It'll be so fun! I'll have one of my favourites to annoy. Yayness.
and i cant wait to check out the new helipad soon. hope yunicorn still working. Haha. Ohman soon soon.

Oh did i mention i went for gaga? And got shitloads of drinks? I can't remember. They taste best. See, always be nice to your bartenders. And always be nice to sheena. Hoho.

And and anD i've been drinking non stop since tuesday! Geeez. And the weekend i was rushing project i drank everyday too cos i was at chalk. Haha. My only clean day was monday. Haha. Time to remain clean liling!

Okay gotta run. Am meeting seanie for starbucks and read book session! His first day of horleedayay. And we've been waiting so long to just chewww and read book. Finally! Im taking locatelli with me. =))






Why leave when you claim it is love
But why stay when you're not the only one.

12:20 PM; unforgotten.Y

i've spent so much money this entire week its scary. and most of my cash was spent on food.

Al dente, ember, dolce vita.

Of which, i would only go back to 1. that being ember.

al dente gave me frozen prawns. And old proscuitto on untoasted white bread. epic fail.
Didnt help that i lost my walkman that day too. And food was in noway comfort.
Oh and if you have to know, all of us felt veewry very thirsty after that lunch. We suspect The cause is msg.

Dinner at ember that night was amazing. It was great company and good food. I was so full but i still ate. And it made me greedy. stuffed myself till food was halfway up my throat. I didnt really like the ambience but well, i was still happy at the end of the evening.

I had dinner at dolce vita this evening. it was meant as a surprise for bestie. That was acheived. But i didn't exactly enjoy myself. Too many voids in service. Food was good though. Except for foie gras parfait (was complimentary tho so i shall be more forgiving). favourite part of the dinner?
The seafood in my aglio olio. Absolutely spot on. this one, compliments to the chef. Ahem, not any chef. But chef sean. =) so thank you love.
And well, i guess the voids in service could be due to our age. We look young.
But it is sad. When i see shit like that, it makes me want to do service. Because i want to be better than that. Better than them all. yet out of every open pore on my body, i hate people. Haha. Thats as sincere as i can get.

Well, i will ember anytime again. al dente is a no way. And dolce vita. Lets just say i'd only go back if some(uber rich)one was paying for my dinner (but even so, i would still be quite unwilling).

Its sad when people get a certain position or job when they only have connection. Work for it. And prove yourself. I experienced that first hand. Yes, service that waS, i dont know. Not worth paying service charge for. And service i definitely would not tip.
this is by no way a review but just a personal experience. I do not believe in hungrygowhere.com because i think people who dont know their shit should shut up. Don't act like you really know your food. don't act like you know service when you've never lifted a finger.

But yeah that was just a side track rant about the people who write reviews and act all smug abt it when they cant tell a potato gratin from lasagne and the difference between bistro and bisque. And hoho, dont even get me started on those who only know how they WANT to be served. But hello sweetheart, where the heck is your basic dining etiquette when you want to be a critic eh?

I hate people.


I havent tried enough places. So i wouldnt dare to be overly critical. the lapse that i see, is what i think i could possibly do better if i were in that position. Perhaps this is why my comments here are very general because i dont want to be associated with the 'food critics' of hungrygowhere.

Ohwell. This is singapore i guess. Dine at the few major places on the island and tada! You're the almighty. Sighh. Pretty sad. But it'll get better! I hope.


Alroghts gnights yall.

4:46 AM; unforgotten.Y

yanoe how in secondary school we always said there was a season for hooking up and a season for breaks?

i think. the season right now is for happy couples.


jealous siolllll.
when i look at charlie's vids with his gf, i feel happy for him. like they're so cute together! and they seem to have alot of fun together. so yay.

sigh, i love happy couples. couples who are more than that, couples who are best friends. i think thats nice.
and according to research, marriage has more likelihood of lasting if you marry your bestfriend okay. so marry your bestfriend today! hahaha.

1:20 AM; unforgotten.Y

i think its good to be hurt by the ones closest to you. It rips you apart so much, no one else can ever do that to you again. But guess what? The ones whom you are most vulnerable infront of, will just come along again and tear you down. And then you stand up again. Only to get hurt more. But you get less torn each time. And when the ones who dont matter come along, you simply walk away. Because they don't have that power. That power to hurt.

With love, comes hurt. And pain.
But we all still throw ourselves in there knowing what we'll get out of it, everytime it doesn't work out. And even if it does, loving makes you ever so vulnerable, it hurts. Yet we still love, we give a part of ourselves to someone as much as we know how it'd hurt us, some way or another.

Ain't love grand?


Love is giving someone the power to break your heart but trusting them not to.


You know who yall are, i love you.

10:19 AM; unforgotten.Y