fly high.

trippin.

tumblin.

suckin.

fuckin.

regrets.

sink low.

promises,

broken.

conscience,

faltered.

piece of mind,

tattered.

heart,

breaks.

worlds,

torn.

yours,

never.

12:52 PM; unforgotten.Y

he makes you feel so loved
you think you mean the world to him



i think it kinda sucks how sometimes you feel as if you mean the world to someone and the next, you're like crash and burn.
i was polishing cutlery today and was just wondering about my worth. i know loads of people love me, but how much?
i don't think i've someone who would give up the world for me. who would give up anything for my happiness. who would say, 'yeah, i'll die for you'.

and i think thats why people get attached in the first place. to feel loved. they get married cos they wanna spend the rest of their lives together. i think thats a very scary thought though. how would you know if you could live the rest of your days with the same person. how would you know if you would love them for the remaining time together. how would you know if that love was undying, unconditional.
and i fear that.

just as how as much as i long for someone to say, 'i'll do anything for you' and mean it, i dread for it to happen.

so you just keep sitting around and waiting.
and have faith.


and then you realise,
hey, you're not that special afterall.

1:21 AM; unforgotten.Y

its so right, its wrong.

2:30 AM; unforgotten.Y

how can the heart survive
can it stay alive
if its love is denied for long

i hope yall have been good.
work is great. the most awesome week just passed me and im happier with myself. in a way i guess?

i havent seen the poly people in darn long its crazy and i miss them.
but just a couple more days to saturday!
xoxoxo

i think i should go to bed now. work work work. and no more offdays. till next week. i hope this weeks gonna be awesome.
and yours too.

im beside you
when i think of you
and im with you
as i dream of you
and a song will bring you near to me

1:32 AM; unforgotten.Y